Why do we need to go through life like everyone?? Am i not special enough to be or to do more than anyone?? i could get so hopeless sometimes.
Starting work as a civil engineer/Qs (mostly is doing QS work) :( only learning 1 semester of QS is not enough AT ALL. But i won't lie by saying that after 4 years of studying, i am still not confident in being a civil engineer. Gosh, i do need the motivation!! =.= But surprisingly, in just 8 days i managed to learn a lot of stuffs, more than i did in school..hohoho. Despite of that, i am still struggling and i do honestly wanted to quit my job on the second day at work. Everyday i just can't wait to end my job at five. Staring at the computer and figures and plan (especially to calculate the steel bars, there are soo many lines, that i can bet after 1 month my eyes gets the lines too) for 7- 8 hours straight really depresses me. I know, this is not the job i want to do. But what can i do as a fresh grad without any experience? no experience, no value. That is why everyday i told myself to gain as much knowledge as i can so that i may run away from that company.
Well, colleagues are sooooo passive, you do your own work, i do mine. everybody keeps quiet and do...arrgghh....i can't stand it.For example, they all assume i'm Chinese until they know my full name (which only 3 out of 9 knows). Can u imagine?
i know i know....be strong and be patience..but i still need to blurt everything out before i get crazy myself. Please don't mind of my complaining because i am still grateful of what i have ;)
With much Love and Care,
Joyce
